Time Flies But Not Memories

I have been working at this company a year and 3 months
Its can be time flies but not good memories at all for this experience
I have no idea what should I really need or have to do
I given myself a year to think about it
But now a year and 3 month, whats in my mind
I, me, myself know very well
The things are i don't wish to go on
Caused I'm afraid to face new thing and to leave
Some of the people tend to call it is life
Ok, fine yeah its LIFE
Like what I'm thinking we shouldn't accept this so call reality life
Life shouldn't be like this, people can change it
But people accepted this reality life thus no one go on to change it including myself don't even try to do that
The first job i having now, its not what i expected
I thought working life can be better
But the things i facing now are worst than people think
Might think its my problem but actually not at all
No one wish to have this kind of suffering life
Doubt life ever even though i trying to get use to it but still the worst one
There is nothing for me to keep it on

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